You decide to take a cold shower because you hate yourself.

The water runs down your back with the consistency of icicles.
It's the middle of winter. It's freezing. You start to shiver in the cold and wet confines of your bathroom.
Overwhelmed with how miserable you are, you begin to cry.
Ugly-cry.
Big, heaving sobs of self-hate and desolation. You're glad nobody can see you right now.

Eventually, you run out of tears. You step out of the shower.

• Put on clothes.
• Go to your date.