If you're planning a burial, you'll need a casket and a burial vault or grave liner...
If you're planning a cremation, you'll need a cremation casket and an urn...
You realize these choices are insignificant to your friends. They will never understand the efforts you are putting in for them. You are working for nothing. You are alive for nothing, for no one. No one is there for you.
Your vision starts to darken as the already dark room pulses heavily through your eyes. Everything begins to hurt. Your eyes burn with tears and your body begins to fail as you feel your innards shrivel and pop.
But the physical impact is nothing compared to the part of your heart that shatters. It shatters and shatters and shatters. Your life is endless and so is your suffering.